Pain, Pain, Pain. Horrible Pain shooting down the spine and in the stomach. Winces and then brightens. It's over for now. Now lets out a breath and sucks one in. Turning to the bright and smiley faces in the room, asks a question: why is this happening to me? Who let it happen? Turns white now and clutches the railing of the bed and starts breating heavy. It's coming back even stronger now.
In a fog not knowing whats going on. Can hear people chattering but can't hear them clearly. Body doing strange things, but they seem natural. Suddenly hear lies a human atop her chest that is crying.
About Me
- NCIS-Lover
- Im am a full time student at EMCC. I have this semester and then all of next year to finish my degree. When I done school I will have an Associates Degree in Early Childhood Education and I will have or be close to my Ed Tech 3. I enjoy being around my family and friends. My best friends family is very important to me and I love those kids. Im not shy, or laid back, and I am up for anything.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Week 14 Theme: Forever Love
Hearts beating, pulses racing, limbs intertwined, heavy breaths in between kisses. As one is lonely, two becomes one. Bobbing on white sheets we see the 15 minutes of us becoming two. Forever together. Who is saying that? Who is intriguing me in this wonderful and sexy way? Gasping for air, trembling onto the floor and breathing slowly and forever we become two in one.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Week 15 Theme
Tuesday, May 4, 2010- (substituting at former/local high school)
This was my former high school from 2004-2008. Now I come back to work as a substitute. It’s weird to do this line of work because I am only two years older than the graduating seniors. I feel weird telling the students to sit down, open their books, be quite, or get to work because of the age difference. Is that normal? Would you feel that way if you were in my shoes? I guess I just have to remember that it’s a job and I have to be professional. Well that’s it for now, talk to you later.
Thursday, May 6, 2010- (substituting at former/local high school)
Today I got called in to work to work in the special education room. I have recently taken a couple of classes on special education and autism. I think that they really helped me understand certain situations and how to handle them. I’m an Early Childhood Education student where working in a high school isn’t relevant to my degree but it gives me the opportunity to see what being a teacher will look like in a year from now.
Friday, May 7, 2010- (substituting at former/local high school)
Today is a half-day at the high school. I’m working in the special education room. I was asked to independently work with a specific student. We knew that he was going to be late, so I filled in where it was necessary. When the student was supposed to be in class- he didn’t show. So I filled in for another position until we were dismissed at 11:30. I left from the high school to go to work at my regular job.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010- (substituting at former/local high school)
Today was a weird day. It was fine. Children were rowdy. Children not staying on task annoy teachers. Power went out because leg on transformer busted. So of course that threw off the entire day. For me I had an easy day because the student that I usually work with was a no show. So I basically got paid to keep order when the power went out. Other than that, it was a great day.
This was my former high school from 2004-2008. Now I come back to work as a substitute. It’s weird to do this line of work because I am only two years older than the graduating seniors. I feel weird telling the students to sit down, open their books, be quite, or get to work because of the age difference. Is that normal? Would you feel that way if you were in my shoes? I guess I just have to remember that it’s a job and I have to be professional. Well that’s it for now, talk to you later.
Thursday, May 6, 2010- (substituting at former/local high school)
Today I got called in to work to work in the special education room. I have recently taken a couple of classes on special education and autism. I think that they really helped me understand certain situations and how to handle them. I’m an Early Childhood Education student where working in a high school isn’t relevant to my degree but it gives me the opportunity to see what being a teacher will look like in a year from now.
Friday, May 7, 2010- (substituting at former/local high school)
Today is a half-day at the high school. I’m working in the special education room. I was asked to independently work with a specific student. We knew that he was going to be late, so I filled in where it was necessary. When the student was supposed to be in class- he didn’t show. So I filled in for another position until we were dismissed at 11:30. I left from the high school to go to work at my regular job.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010- (substituting at former/local high school)
Today was a weird day. It was fine. Children were rowdy. Children not staying on task annoy teachers. Power went out because leg on transformer busted. So of course that threw off the entire day. For me I had an easy day because the student that I usually work with was a no show. So I basically got paid to keep order when the power went out. Other than that, it was a great day.
Week 13 Theme
It started off as a typical saturday. I have to work from 2-9. Yippie, yet another night shift. Anyways, I'm driving on the interstate, headed towards work. I get into the fast lane because I dont like slow drivers. I see the off-ramp that I need to take and put my blinker on and start to merge over. Just as I get on the off-ramp a car came out of nowhere and this jerk almost hits my car. I swear and flip this person the burd, of course nobody heard or saw me.
I get to work, park the car, and head inside. After I punch in and head up front I notice that I am running the service desk and I have a cashier coming in at 4pm. Thank God, I really didn't want to run on a cash register tonight. A couple hours into my shift I have to deal with a husband/wife duo that wanted to return something. They didn't have a reciept and our policy states that in order to have return or exchange an item(s) you have to have a reciept or gift reciept. I explained that to them and they got a little mad. I told them that I could try a couple of things to find it but make no promises. In theend I couldnt find it and they yelled at me and said that they would not be shopping here ever again.
I got on register at around 6pm so that the cashier on duty could take a 15 minute break. I have customers in line and the phone starts to ring. I couldn't get to it so I radioed to the Sales Floor Supervisor and asked her to get it. She did and radioed back that it was for me. When i got a minute break, i answered it. It was my brother. We exchanged greetings but I could tell something was wrong. He told me that my sister was involved in a car accident. "What" is all I manged to say. I sort of went into panic mode. He told me he was on-route to the hospital. "What hospital is she going to" is my next question. He told me what hospital and I told him I would be there ASAP.
I paged the supervisor to dial 31. When she paged in, I explained to her what my brother told me. I told her that as soon as the cashier got back up front, I needed to leave and get to the hospital. She told me I have to wait to leave, so that I could cover her lunch break she was taking in 30 minutes. "EXCUSE ME" was my response. We dont have the coverage today and you need to stay. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I hung up the phone.
The cashier had come up and I explained to her what was happening. She understood when I told her I had to leave. Just as I turn around the supervisor was standing there. She yet again, I couldn't leave until she came back. I grabbed my keys frm the draw and took off for the front doors. She followed me right out to my car still yapping in my ear. I stated the engine and told her to move or get run over. She moved and I sped to the hospital.
Once there, I had to shut of my phone and followed the nurses directions to where my brother should be. I found him and he explained what he could. Since our parentsare not in the picture, I have parental/gaurdianship responsibilities. My brother was not 18 years old at the time and couldn't sign the forms. They did surgery under these circumstances, because they new I was on-route. Once there, I signed all the forms. My sister came out fine but is still badly bruised. Also had a broken legand arm. Even though she was fine and I was glad, I was thinking that I may not have a job come Monday....
I get to work, park the car, and head inside. After I punch in and head up front I notice that I am running the service desk and I have a cashier coming in at 4pm. Thank God, I really didn't want to run on a cash register tonight. A couple hours into my shift I have to deal with a husband/wife duo that wanted to return something. They didn't have a reciept and our policy states that in order to have return or exchange an item(s) you have to have a reciept or gift reciept. I explained that to them and they got a little mad. I told them that I could try a couple of things to find it but make no promises. In theend I couldnt find it and they yelled at me and said that they would not be shopping here ever again.
I got on register at around 6pm so that the cashier on duty could take a 15 minute break. I have customers in line and the phone starts to ring. I couldn't get to it so I radioed to the Sales Floor Supervisor and asked her to get it. She did and radioed back that it was for me. When i got a minute break, i answered it. It was my brother. We exchanged greetings but I could tell something was wrong. He told me that my sister was involved in a car accident. "What" is all I manged to say. I sort of went into panic mode. He told me he was on-route to the hospital. "What hospital is she going to" is my next question. He told me what hospital and I told him I would be there ASAP.
I paged the supervisor to dial 31. When she paged in, I explained to her what my brother told me. I told her that as soon as the cashier got back up front, I needed to leave and get to the hospital. She told me I have to wait to leave, so that I could cover her lunch break she was taking in 30 minutes. "EXCUSE ME" was my response. We dont have the coverage today and you need to stay. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I hung up the phone.
The cashier had come up and I explained to her what was happening. She understood when I told her I had to leave. Just as I turn around the supervisor was standing there. She yet again, I couldn't leave until she came back. I grabbed my keys frm the draw and took off for the front doors. She followed me right out to my car still yapping in my ear. I stated the engine and told her to move or get run over. She moved and I sped to the hospital.
Once there, I had to shut of my phone and followed the nurses directions to where my brother should be. I found him and he explained what he could. Since our parentsare not in the picture, I have parental/gaurdianship responsibilities. My brother was not 18 years old at the time and couldn't sign the forms. They did surgery under these circumstances, because they new I was on-route. Once there, I signed all the forms. My sister came out fine but is still badly bruised. Also had a broken legand arm. Even though she was fine and I was glad, I was thinking that I may not have a job come Monday....
Friday, May 7, 2010
Week 12 Theme
It was a mid-afternoon day and I had cleaned the whole house and I even scrubbed the toilets. Brandon had taken the kids to the zoo and then to the park.
My cell phone was charging in the kitchen. It started to ring so I got up to answer it. It was Brandon letting me know that he was going to take the kids to get something to eat. I looked at the clock and read 6:15pm and I didn't realize how late it had got. I decided to go for a run. i went and changed into jogging clothes and then put on my jogging shoes.
I went jogging around the neighborhood and the park and on my way back home I felt strange, like someone was watching me. I looked behind me and sure enough there was. This guy was staring at me. He was a young person and was checking me out. I step my running up but he did as well. I finally stoped by this white truck to ask him why he was following me.
He told me that he was following me because he wanted to give me $500.00 to be his girlfriend for 6 hours. I just stared at him. He said that his friends bet him that he couldn't get a date to the senior prom, so when he saw me jogging he decided to ask me. I just stood there. I couldn't get my head around what he was saying.
He took a step forward towards me and I just turned and ran toward my house. Once I got there, I ran inside and locked all the doors. Once that was done I stayed put until Brandon got home.
My cell phone was charging in the kitchen. It started to ring so I got up to answer it. It was Brandon letting me know that he was going to take the kids to get something to eat. I looked at the clock and read 6:15pm and I didn't realize how late it had got. I decided to go for a run. i went and changed into jogging clothes and then put on my jogging shoes.
I went jogging around the neighborhood and the park and on my way back home I felt strange, like someone was watching me. I looked behind me and sure enough there was. This guy was staring at me. He was a young person and was checking me out. I step my running up but he did as well. I finally stoped by this white truck to ask him why he was following me.
He told me that he was following me because he wanted to give me $500.00 to be his girlfriend for 6 hours. I just stared at him. He said that his friends bet him that he couldn't get a date to the senior prom, so when he saw me jogging he decided to ask me. I just stood there. I couldn't get my head around what he was saying.
He took a step forward towards me and I just turned and ran toward my house. Once I got there, I ran inside and locked all the doors. Once that was done I stayed put until Brandon got home.
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